Loving In Silence

Heartaches – as what some say come naturally when you fall in love but it’s the last thing most lovers think about before falling in love. Ironically though, people still want to be in love and wanted to be loved in return. But that’s not always the case. There are people who are being loved but they just can’t reciprocate the feeling. And there are people who choose to love those who don’t love them back. Should I simply understand this as what they call “complicated”?

Somehow, I asked myself why in the world do I have to fall madly in love with a man who barely has time to love. Some friends name him as my ultimate crush but I could not call him so. How can they define it a crush when this feeling has been jamming my mind for many years? It takes an extraordinary courage for a woman to open up her feelings to the man she loves. Sadly, there’s no university where I could study and learn that courage so I just choose to hold my feeling to myself.

I met him in 2004. He was neither a typical guy nor someone who looked so attractive. But he has this kind of appeal and charm that could make one wonder why he isn’t having a girlfriend yet. I heard a lot about him from his younger sister who was then my classmate in college and the one who gave his number to me. He didn’t talk a lot, simply put, a guy with one word. When I met him, I was not that young at age for I was already twenty-two but was still inexperience in terms of relationships. I called him “kuya” although I had a crush on him. But I think I was very childish then.

I remember inviting him to the wedding of my relative. I was very happy when he came but I didn’t know how to entertain him, I didn’t know what to do. How I hoped that day would never end but the day seemed shortened for he had to hurry back to his workplace. I hated to admit but I could not take his face off my mind. I must be in love!

The days went on and I hadn’t gotten even a single message from him. I tried to find some ways to see him again but there were nothing I could think about. The only thing I could do was to drop by outside of the office where he worked just to see him but I never saw him once. I then sought the help of my uncle. With my uncle’s desire to support his niece, he decided to have our business receipts printed at the printing press where “kuya” worked as a graphic designer. I was so glad and expectant that this step would succeed. I called him (nervously) and told him about the receipt. An answer I didn't expect was what I got from him. He just told me to find another printing press for they charged higher than others. Failed! Nevertheless, I didn’t stop right there. I continued sending him messages when I had the chance to use my mother’s phone. I greeted him, I asked him how he was, and sent him quotes. His reply where always “thanks”, “ok”, “fine”. And he never sent any message first.

With that kind of response, I realized he really had no interest in me. It was hard but I had to let go of my feelings. I told myself that the man I loved was the guy my classmate told me about, it wasn’t him. I deleted his number and taught myself to forget him.

Eight years had passed. I’ve had through a relationship but couldn’t forget “kuya” completely. Each day I wish that I would see him somewhere. July of 2012, I didn’t expect to see him again at an assembly. My heart beat faster. I didn’t know whether I would say “hi”, “hello”, or just say nothing at all. Anyway, I did the latter. After the program, we had some picture taking. I was so uneasy for he was the one who took the picture but why didn’t he seem to know me? To avoid being hurt, I told myself that he surely already had a girlfriend but later I found out that he didn’t have one.

After that day, the feeling that I have been trying to erase came back. It’s not that I am expecting him to like me as well but I am glad to see him again. This time my only wish was to get his number but it was hard.

One day, I was surprised when his sister told me to attend a certain seminar. I was hesitant to go at first because I would be busy on the seminar scheduled date. But when she said that her brother might be the speaker, I accepted the invitation without second thought.

The seminar had started when I arrived but he wasn't the speaker. When he saw me, he approached me, stretched his hand for a shake hands. Simple yet memorable time for me. From that time on, we regularly meet for some business arrangements and sometimes a simple meal with friends and his family.

The more I get to know him, the more I have the reason to love him. He’s not just very nice outside but also inside. Our usual business and friendly conversations are good enough to make my heart jump with joy. Although I don’t see any signs of him liking me, I am grateful that I have a special friend like him to treasure. But I wouldn't stop praying that someday, he would see and realize that I am just around waiting.

 I booked him in my phone as “my raindrops” because every time I shed tears thinking about my hopeless love for him, it also rains. I am happy because at least, something knows what I feel “the sky”.

It doesn't mean that because I didn't speak for it, I'm losing the person. Sometimes keeping your feelings ease-out our actions. Some things are just never meant to be no matter how much we wish they were, but I'm too young to let go. Who knows? I'm neither lockin' up this heart of mine, true love will always find me in the end I know.

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                                                                                                 Source: MCB

Let There Be Loved

One day, a typical girl meets this guy in their school ground whom she never expected to be "someone that will make her life the happiest and the loneliest. They get along together easily and started supporting each other’s activities in the university.

Apparently the girl’s family didn't like the guy; they thought that she can do well in school if he's not around. Just like any other supportive and loving family, they keep on protecting each other’s members to keep them away from harmful inefficient people around. Because of their protection, they consulted a fortune teller to foresee their daughter’s future with the guy. Unfavorable information from the consulted fortune teller were instilled in family’s mind saying that she’ll get pregnant, be abandoned and stay helpless in her studies.

She started to give up and drop everything that they have started, but he kept on finding ways to reach and communicate her either in a notebook ( to express anything he’d love to say), in someone else’s cellphones to text her, or in church to converse with her personally begging to fight for whatever feelings they have and keep holding.

Tired of convincing, he gathered enough strength to communicate with her mother to explain the situation they’re in. Eventually after a year of hiding from everyone her family decided to meet him.  Things started to get better but older sister still wasn't in favor.  

Both continued their relationship with a promise that he will be serious with his goals and his studies, and so he did. Maybe strong relationships will always be measured and here’s another new shot--- he was tempted to experience how it felt like to have a fling and realized that “marriage” isn’t in his system, not yet. While she was too busy with her studies to notice what was going on good friends were screaming of madness ‘coz of his flaunted actions. “She’s too good for him”, they quoted. Nothing last a lifetime so the moment she figured it out, a huge confrontation burst!

The third party asked for forgiveness for the troubles she caused and was forgiven; he also asked forgiveness to the ladies and beg to give him another chance to prove his love to her.

Famous song “Love Is Blind” really existed, she wholeheartedly accepted him back, naïve but helpless with the feeling. He’s trying to prove that she’ll never regret that she’d accepted him back. He tried to be mature and think futuristically and happily finished their bachelor’s degree.

Work. Both experienced full time work, less time together. She worked at night while he worked at daytime. He’d been asking her to give each other’s time but she’d been doomed focused in her job. They decided to go on a separate ways and be friends.

The guy met someone else while she was still busy with her career but got broke upon hearing the news. Time heals broken wounds. Her career, family and friends gave her reason to continue living.

Every New Year’s Eve he was used to celebrate it with her family. Once he asked if he can still celebrate it with them even if they’re not together and she’s too weak to refuse. They celebrated it together with the family happily.  

As a friend, he helped her find same career in a company where he’s into. Awkward but thankful that she finally be working with him in the same institution.

Later he felt spark inside him, something that his new relationship can’t give and decided to end it all. He started courting her back, saying sweet words, showing concerns, asking her on a date was then his strategy but failed. He was not used to asking help but he did. He asked their workmates to bring her in place where he waits; the moment they arrived he was in tears upon saying the poem he made. He promised to love, respect, and understand her forever. Both cried in mixed emotions.

As years passed by, their relationship got even stronger. Early this year he asked her on a date, on that date mark an unforgettable day in them, she never expected that he’ll asked her to be his wife.  For 8 long years of being together finally this date arrived for them.

Let God be your guidance coz he will give you the right one at the right time.

They'll bind as one soon.

There's no need to rush. If something is meant to be, it will happen. In the right time, with the right person and for the right reason. The more you stay together, the more you're measured.

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                                                                                                      Source: Roseric119

Keep It In Flowers

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A Lifelong Learning

Hindi ako mahilig magsulat, at mas lalong walang alam kung paano sisimulan ang storyang hindi ko masyadong natatandaan kung paano umusbong. Nakakatawa, I should have known it, kung alam ko lang na magsusulat ako ng kakornihan sa buhay sinimulan ko na sana nung una pa.

My experience will never be new to you. You may possibly be hearing the same story with your friends, or friends’ friend. Kay sana h’wag nyo akong husgahan upon sharing this…

It started when I decided to go abroad, kasagsagan ng kahirapan ng panahong yun. I have two kids, my wife and I rented in an apartment na medyo costly and as a man I ought to give food, shelter, clothing and education to my family. Mahirap maging sole bread winner sa pamilya; mahirap maging lalaki. Pero dahil pinalaki akong maging responsable, kaya kahit mahirap man pinatunayan ko na kaya ko.

Every man wants to have a convenient living for their family, at isa ako dun. Pero dahil hindi nga ako pinanganak na mayaman, kaya ko nalang tinikis at pinasyahang mangibang bayan – para kanino pa  ba’t ginawa ko to. Para sa pamilya.

To cut it shorter, nangibang bayan nga ako. Mahirap, malungkot, nakakatakot nung una, dalawa at tatlong buwan. Hindi ko gaanong kakilala ang mga tao, hindi ko maintindihan ang lingwahe ng mga tao. Puro sariling kayod, walang asawang maghahain, walang anak na hahalik, walang lasa ang pagkain. Pero kinaya ko lahat dahil desidido akong maiahon sa kahirapan ang pamilya ko. Kulang dose oras ang trabaho, bawal ang mataas na pahinga. 

Six months later, nakapag-adjust rin ako. May routine na ang araw-araw na gawain, may nakakausap narin na mga kaibigan. Pagnamimiss ang family, isang phone call lang at napapatawa na ako, nagiging light lahat agad ng mga trabaho.

Mabilis lumipas ang dalawang taon, umuwi ako at nagsimulang magtayo ng bahay. Hindi pa ako

 nakontento, siguro nga parte ng personalidad ng tao kadalasan ang hindi makontento. Bumalik na naman ako sa ibang bansa. Minsan mas nauuna ang pangangailangan sa pera kaya’t hindi ko nalang namamalayan na unti-unti ng lumalaki ang mga anak ko. Nabibigyan ko nga ng mas maginhawang buhay pero parang kulang, parang hindi ko nakikita ang paglaki nila, pag-uugali, hindi na ako ang nagdidisiplina. 

Dumating ang mga araw na naging madalang ang komunikasyon namin ng asawa ko, mas naging marami ang mga kaibigan – alam nyo na siguro ang kasunod, maraming temptasyon. Dati rati hindi ako tinatamaan nito, pero sa ikalawang balik ko parang medyo nadadala na ako. Pilit kong tinatama ang maling konseptong bumabalot pero matagal pa bago ako makakauwi. Hindi naglaon natamaan na talaga.

Minsan napasama ako sa gimmick ng mga kaibigan, may ipinakilalang pinay, may asawa rin. Hindi ako nanligaw basta nagkaintindihan nalang at nangyari nga. Hindi ko  inaasahang magagawa kong magloko sa asawa ko pero dumating sa puntong napasubo ako. Nakokonsensya ako, kahit na yong naging kerida ko pero sabi nga sanayan lang yan. Hindi mabubuking kung walang magsasalita. 

Nakakapangilabot pero naging ahas ako sa marriage ko. Alam kong mali pero nahihirapan na akong itama. Parang naging bisyo rin yon saken nung mga panahon na yon.  Hindi ko namamalayan na mas lalo na akong lumalayo sa pamilya ko. Hanggang dumating pa sa punto na naiinis na ako pagtinatawagan ako ng asawa ko para kumustahin, nakakainis dahil nakakakonsensya. 

Lumalim pa ang samahan ko sa isa, naging maasikaso kasi sya at marunong din umalaga, natutugunan nya rin ang mga pangangailangan ko. Naging payak ang isipan ko, masyadong makamundo. 

Isang araw hindi ko alam kung panu nalaman ng misis ko ang kalokohan ko, basta nalaman niya narin lang. Alam nya kung kailan ako nagsisinungaling at kung kalian hindi. Sa pag-uwi ko wala na akong pamilyang nadatnan sa bahay. Ang masaganang buhay na pinapangarap ko sa pamilya ko noon, ngayon wasak na. Umuwi yong asawa ko sa probinsya nila, pilit kong sinusuyo pero matigas sya. Dun naman sa naging kinakasama ko sa labas, pinutol ko narin ang ugnayan namin dahil higit na mas dapat naming pagtuonan ng pansin ang mga pamilya namin.

Isang araw narinig ko nalang na yong dating kasintahan ng misis ko ay nagpaparamdam na ulit sa kanya. Natatakot ako nun baka gantihan ako ng asawa ko. Hindi ko mahawakan at madalaw man lang ang mga anak ko, umabot narin ng ilang buwan  na walang naging direksyon ang buhay ko.

Kung paano ako nagtaksil, ganun rin ang pagbabayad. 

Hanggang ngayon pilit ko paring tinatama ang mali ko, nung isang taon pa kami nagkahiwalay ng misis ko ‘january’ at ngayon ipinagdarasal ko parin na maging maayos na ang lahat. Sa awa ng Diyos hindi rin naging sila ng misis ko at ng ex nya.

 Pasensysa na, this isn’t a love story with beautiful and colorful endings but my story hasn’t ended yet, habang may buhay, I know I still have all my life to correct my mistakes. I won’t give up on this marriage easily. I have committed my sins and there’s no way I won’t be paying for it, hanggang ngayon pinagbabayaran ko parin at tanggap ko yon.

Hindi na ulit ako lumabas pa ng bansa, kaya naman pala akong i-hire ng mga employer sa Pilipinas, hindi gaano ang sweldo bilang web designer pero mas magaan sa loob. Pero mas magaan sana kung andito ang pamilya kasama ko. Hindi ko sinasabing pagnagtatrabaho ka sa Pinas eh wala ng temptasyon, mali,kahit saan naglilipana lang yan. Ang naging kulang na kulang ko lang is the “Faith” and “Pray” kaya siguro naging marupok ako ng minsan. 

Marriage isn’t a play; once committed, it must be taken cared forever. Never fail to seek for HIS guidance, dahil dito ako nagkulang. Marriage is sacred, and no one is entitled to play with it and file annulment when you two get no good with each other. Never ask for marriage for shallow reasons. Keep it ‘coz it’s the greatest blessings and wealth we’ll ever have, not the money. 

This is my life and hope you learn from it.

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                                                                                                Source: J.L.

There Is Always A Right Time

While everybody is in awe of fireworks, busy in making noise, enjoying sumptuous food, and savoring fellowships as they welcome new year…someone was stilled to see a special name appeared in cell phone’s screen.  Unexpected call after 2 years of silence and tests…A call that sealed a beautiful relationship. 

Let me share to you how this love story began….

Dan wanted to go home. Dan dearly missed his family after working for some time in Manila as a call center agent. He asked permission to take vacation leave but it was disapproved. In his deep longing to be home, he took risk and resigned from his work. He barely know that coming home is God’s way to reveal unto him the woman he has been praying for after 30 years of being no girlfriend since birth. (:

On the other hand, Faith was excited to join the young people in their Christmas Institute in Mangagoy UMC. Vibrant and enthusiastic as she is, she came also to see the pacific through an overlooking panorama. Little did she know that the excitement was God’s way to uncover the painting of love He has crafted for her.

It was not soon though. Acquaintance Night was not their moment even they were mingling with other delegates – Until the next day when Faith intended to behold the beautiful scenery of the ocean. She was exclaiming of the beauty…He was outside the church, waiting. She sought for someone to answer her questions…He was just right in time and place. The queries about the Sea led to the shore of personal information. Hmmmm something fishy. (:

CI was over but not the encounter. Dan was not contented to just witness the shore, he wanted to take a dip and experience more. He traveled from Mangagoy to Tagum. A sweet smile. Yes, that very sweet smile moved his heart when they met again. The friendship was deepened. But Dan has to leave for Manila. Oceans apart yet still connected through Smart communications. Who says that presence is needed to fall in love? Despite the distance, the two has mutual feeling and agreed…but no commitment yet.

As Christians as they are, they practiced fasting. To test their loyalty to each other, they decided to have two years moment of silence. If this covenant is broken, there’ll be no more future commitments. Each prayed, asking God if they are for each other and both for the Lord. You can imagine how hard it was to suppress the emotions of longing..

And in 2009, New Year’s eve, the fasting has come to end. A ring on the phone was heard and they started the year right through a commitment. For Dan, the search was over. For Faith, a prayer was answered.  When God made Dan, He must have been thinking about Faith.

Love is patient. And those who wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. In His time, He made all things beautiful. Dan and Faith has finally committed in holy matrimony last January 1,2012. This is the day that the Lord has made, we will rejoice   and be glad in it.
                                                    source: Ms. Faith

Hello February! Hello Love!

I've been thinking of ways to welcome and to “what-to-post” this February. Then I came up collecting stories and experiences of others remarkable dates. No one has the same story as the other; each will always has its mean of difference. In so whatever story which I shall be featuring marked a history to an individual.

How did I come up with the idea?

I opened my blogsite trying to post something relevant for this month, and end up blank in a blank sheet. Then I heard sad stories over the radio seeking help in saving their relationships, it gave me an initial motivation but never on the same set up, never on people seeking help rather on people who know what stories they’re into.

The further I learned about the innate quality of human being  in giving and feeling love interests me to pursue my plan and end up posting in social networking sites  whether stories concluded up being together or never, but learned.

Posting various stories could also mean a wonderful gift to express and to let people know how you were confident with what you’ve gotten and/or overcome. To inform the readers that you are not ashamed that you’ve experienced it; that it’s so worth it and that you’re proud of it.

Famous Twilight has its own story just like Princes and Princesses in their fairytales, love stories never fade, it keeps growing – and people adore it because each and everyone have its attachments but then I realized that nothing beats an uninvented writing.

Not everyone has the guts to share their story, and I’m proud to be bringing up their story to you.